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[03 Aug 2005|05:50pm] [ mood | peaceful ] So I finally have a day off from work, and nothing too eventful. I am sitting in Rob's house with him and his older sister, hanging out in the AC haha.. bored, probably gonna have dinner here since my parents are being bitchy. I'm hungry lol. 1 comment|post comment

[29 Jul 2005|11:28am] So I've been working like crazy. It's cool because I get paid, but damn, am I tired by the end of the day. If I haven't talked to you sorry, but I am tired as hell. I'll get around to all the missed messages though. post comment

[22 Jul 2005|12:53pm] [ mood | hot ] So today the plan is to head to the movies and go see something that's out. Gonna go with my friend John later on. Haven't been to the movies in a bit so whatever I'm spending money on better be good. I talked to my dad and maybe will start working with him again. Doesn't sound too bad, but I guess it's better than my previous job. Kind of happy I quit.. don't really like bosses who are dicks.. it doesn't intimidate me, just makes me want to not work or help the boss.. so I'll see how this goes for now. post comment

Feeling weird today.. [19 Jul 2005|02:07pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Guess from the entry.. ] Now and then it seems worse than it is, but mostly the view is accurate. You see your breath in the air while you climb up the stairs to that coffin you call your apartment. And you sink in your chair, brush the snow from your hair and drink the cold away. You are not really sure what you are doing this for but you need something to fill up the days. A few more hours. There is a dream in my brain that just won't go away. It has been stuck there since it came a few nights ago I'm standing on a bridge in the town where I lived as a kid with my mom and my brothers. And then the bridge disappears and I'm standing on air with nothing holding me. And I hang like a star, fucking glow in the dark, for all those staring eyes to see, like the ones we've wished on. But now I'm confused. Is this death really you? Do these dreams have any meaning? No. No, I think it is more like a ghost that has been following us both. Something vague that we are not seeing, something more like a feeling. post comment

[17 Jul 2005|02:49pm] [ mood | contemplative ] Just watching movies before. Waiting for Rob to come by. Business is slow and he doesn't work today. Been wondering a lot about life lately. Ah, and Rob just called.. I'll continue this later.. perfecti timing lol. post comment

[15 Jul 2005|01:25pm] [ mood | contemplative ] It's been raining all damn week.. well, not really, but just shitty weather, cloudy and everything. Finally see some sun, maybe go out later and do something. Felt a little bit better since my last private entry. Just vented about everything that I can't, or don't want to talk to people about. Sometimes I wish I had a different life, but guess you gotta make use of what you have. Least that's what I'm trying to do. Maybe will chill at Rob's tonight, I can talk to that kid about shit. Alrighty, until then. post comment

[13 Jul 2005|01:12pm] [ mood | disappointed ] Had an awesome time this past week... chillin with the boys.. sat around Rob's.. he had a fun time in LA. Wish I could visit a place this summer, but doesn't seem to be happening. Maybe next year, guess that will be a goal. I don't know, just sick of going to the same places sometimes. I wonder if most people my age get all stupid about where they are going in life. Just my family is having problems, and I don't know about my future yet. I feel like I am at a crossroads and ahh, don't know what to do. post comment

Bland? [10 Jul 2005|03:45pm] [ mood | busy ] My LJ needs a makeover, but not sure how to do it. Oh well, not smart enough, heh. Can't even see my titles. Whatever, gotta get going, other stuff to worry about.. post comment

[01 Jul 2005|10:08am] [ mood | sleepy ] Okay, so I have been writing a couple of private entries... I don't know, even though I don't have much friends on this, I don't want random people I might know coming across what I wrote. Is it paranoia? Nah, more like caution... I wrote about my ex a lot, and yeah, I could see her reading my stuff and going psycho on me or something. I'm glad I am over her, it took a bit, but hey, that's life... Now, if only I could find a job, that would be cool to take up some time... Oh yeah, I was also thinking.. am I the only guy on lj?? Seems like it lol. post comment

[17 Jun 2005|11:57am] [ mood | rushed ] I was thinking about school and what to do. I think I have to much free time... all I do is think. Well, my friend Rob is coming back from Los Angelos today. Can't wait til he gets here, finally have something fun to do. Probably gonna drive around in his car, pick up the other guys, and just chill somewhere. Just would be good to see old friends again. See what they are up to, if they are going back to school next semester or what. post comment

First entry [03 Jun 2005|01:00pm] [ mood | bored ] Hm, first entry... I quit my job last week. I just wasn't happy. Now I don't know what to do with my time. I need to get out more. My friends have been pissing me off a little bit, and the people I am good with are away on vacation now. Seems like I am always stuck here... would love to do something cool this summer... post comment

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